Wednesday, January 8, 2014

HuiFeNn Says: A horse? 
Few days ago, someone asked me what is true love. I said I dont know, and he told me that true love is you do not need to pay after you F. WTF.
Okay, I am still counting down, 13 days to go. I cant wait to go home. i miss my dog so much,  do Chinese new year shopping. haha.
I wished I could go to kl. sigh, mummy don't let. I am still waiting for my DE course. sigh. latest news, I will go with how min on April. yes.
push how min to book the ticket to Taiwan with kiwi asap. after book then only jadi go. mouth say only forever wont go. 

Sunday, January 5, 2014


HuiFeNn Says: you know what,
this is what I felt now. LOL~ 
Once upon a time, with this dark and short guy. lol. when I was short hair. LoL. I miss my Curtin days.  sighs. I am too old now.
Opps, before i forgot, Happy New Year 2014 to myself. (yea, I know one day I will read this back, I hope that I will capture at least bits of my memories here, before I forgot).
My New Year resolution is to get new job. fuck, i desperately need a new job. anyone willing to hire me? I don't mind if I get smaller pay than what I have got now. I just wan a stable job, and a company that will appreciate my efforts. U know the feeling of worthless? doesn't matter how much you have done, no one appreciate it? fuck all these. i am not happy.
I became so grumpy nowadays. Like angry bird. throwing tantrums to everyone. LoL. don't blame me, i am aries. Probably i need to set a new year resolution, to become less grumpy. haha. i know this is almost impossible. ya. haha.
I don't know since when, but recently I realized that I became a complain freak. I complain almost everything. everyone. LoL. Yes, i know. i should change it as well. And thanks to my company, I adapt all these bad behaviour. i guess i used to be a good girl? hahahah.
Requested to go for course on Feb 2014 with how min. but i got rejected. no word can describe how disappointed i am. not to myself. but to my company. LoL. ok. see, i am complaining and babbling again. lol. i have confident with my work. no doubt. over confident level: unbelievable. hahaha.
ok, stop complaining about the company, because when i look back, i actually got a lot more from them. even though i am still not happy. hahaha. at least they sent me to different part of the world. which i really appreciate. haha.
i guess the most memorable thing in 2013 is to have a course in Paris, France. U know what, never in my life i have ever think of going to Paris. So, i cannot consider this as dream came true, because i never dream. ok. thank you company.
and another thing is that, i complain about my basic salary to the boss. haha. what the hell, its not because i am a complain freak, but come on, how will you respond if u realize that you got the same salary with your trainee that recently join? u already worked for 2 years, and you get the same damn thing? of course complain la. but after i complain, they didn't give us any good explanation. which makes me more pissed off. hell.
i stuck in Naga3 for so many hitches. that i have completed 3 wells, and 2 more to go. i hope that by the end of this month i will be home, and manage to get my Chinese new year off. So, dear miss coordinator, please keep your promise. or else, u will not be able to find me on Hari Raya this year IF i am still with your company.
LoL. Naga3 is one of the best rig that i have ever been. seriously, i love this rig. i guess i will be really sad after we rig down. from food to crews, all nice. hahah. if it is not nice, i wont stay here for so many hitches. haha.
too much mumbling. met this new trainee, and she said that i like to membebel. ok. i admit. haha.
U know what, even though i am committed in a relationship, but i don't feel anything. because sometimes i wonder if LE BF remember me. i am not sure whether i am a big failure or he is. i am a failure that my bf don't remember me? or he is just sucks? no idea. ok, i guessed i love the wrong guy. but what to do. u tot so easy to stop or end a 4 years relationship ah? ok. stop all the shit about just forget about it. say easy. do hard.
i miss my pappi so much. i wonder if she still remember me. sigh. pappi mammi coming home soon !